if someday

choices begin to have serious consequences. 
save me from my self Rabb..

dan cukuplah engkau menjadikan aku seseorang yang patuh kepadamu dengan menjadi seseorang yang pantas aku patuhi. sehingga aku mempunyai alasan mengapa aku harus berhias setiap hari, dan mengapa aku harus menjaga diriku, kehormatan, dan juga hartamu saat engkau tidak ada di sisi.

(rephrasing from hadist riwayat nasa'i. hadistnya shahih)

#Ayah.. how if someday finally a guy come to our house ? would you be on the same side with him? would you bare with him?
i start to cry everytime we talk about this stuff..
yah.. i love you. you are my man and you are irreplaceable :')

O dear my fairytale.. and i know if our days was a story book, we would meet on the very first page and the last chapter would be about how i am thankful for the life we have made.. the life He has given to me

Allah,, maybe destiny said that this has to be happened. then insha Allah, i will try to understand that this might have been the best for me. for you. for us..

# thats life, a big chunk of feelings :')